imagining~~Dreaming~~

10.1.2010 Evening

Everyone like imagining and dreaming for our future..am i right??^^ of course, i am the part of the group.. I like to imagine for my future..hope i can have my own dream house...have nice decoration, have a delicious menu...have a good business...haha..^^..always thinking this dish or tat dish will be my restaurant's menu in the future...A dream will come true??

Suddenly, i am thinking when i am finished study, what will be my next step??continue stay at here or going back to penang??if going back to penang, what should i do again??confuse...am i thinking too early?? i wont let myself to stop down, i will feel uncomfortable if i no have any plan for the next...izit i am impatient ppl??i think, i am....haha...but as a chef, the basics attitude is must be patient...if not..will always cook the undercooked dishes..you all dare to try???

Our 1st chef Ronato..he cannot teached us anymore..because he was kicked out by HOSTEC..So sad.......tommorrw the head of the chef department_ Matt..he will be our practice chef started by tomorrow...WooW....manager level...he is my admirer...haha^^...so happy...but some of my classmates not so happy when heard abt the news...haha..because Matt is a strict person...i am happy whilst i am scare as well..haha...

Another thing is....My grandmother was sick from few months ago...she cannot stand..cannot eat..just sleep on the bed..one or two week ago, she came and stayed at my house...they said she is waiting the time..and " touch wood" when she pass away,the funeral ceremony will progress at my house...last week, i called back, aunty hold the mobile phone for her, and i called her ah ma...she answed ermm....tat all..i also cant talk with her..because she cannot speak....we not so close with her, but i am so scare as well..i still remember, when i am a little baby, my family cant support, no money to buy milk for me..wanna send me to other aunty...but..my daddy side which mean is grandparent...they wont allow to do tat..so they pay and buy milk for me...this is the story i knew...i am regret,why before no always go to visit them..even we are stay at the same village... mummy told me, if have anything, i no need to go back, she said she ady told grandma..she said grandma will understand...